So hi 2024!

Not a good start when I wrote this blog on the second day of 2024.

For real. 

So I met this guy online and then I asked to see him in person. At first, I didn't get his vibe but he is someone that comfortable to talk to. After a few days of chatting, I fell in love and I thought he was too. But due some reason, I decided to think of him as a friend only and he seemed fine with the idea. We had an argument and that argument led to a serious talk until he said that I was the one that drew the line.

Long story short, today we cut ties. I am in my moving-on phase, again. Imagine, the new year should start with a new episode but I just ended mine. I have a crush on someone from my office too but since I met this guy, I can move on (am I??). Should I continue my crush on someone from he office?

Arghh adulting is hard but thankfully I am 30 and I feel like I have nothing to lose. I just take this kind of condition as my istikhara answer. Allah knows what works best for me.

Currently I am taking a break from partner hunting. I should focus on lose weight, classes and getting a new job. That's my 3 goals right now.

May Allah ease this journey.

And not late to say, welcome 2024! bring it on babyyy

XOXO, 

30-yo auntie.

Assalam & hi I am here again.

I come here only when I am in love, in moving on phase and tawakkal mode.

This time, I fall in love with someone from my office.

Donno how to describe him and what makes me fall in love because love is definitely a mystery hahah.

I am doing my istikhara. If he is the best for me, dunia & akhirah, may Allah ease everything. May Allah gerakkan his heart towards me and make a move. Again, may Allah ease evrything.

La hawlawalaquwwata illa billah. May this love makes me closer to You.

XOXO,

In-love person.

Acceptance Phase

 Hi, 

I am in my acceptance phase. In the moving on phase. Still thinking, wondering, and analyzing why he rejected me. 

Today i found his social media. From what I can see, i totally do not deserve him. Now i know why Allah make it not happen.

May Allah guide me to be a better person like him, and give me a better man when I am ready.

Ya Allah, 

The most generous, grant me rezeqi to travel the world, grant me rezeqi a good and sabr soulmate, grant me the highest Jannah, with my family and all my beloved ones.

I am longing for Your love. Keep reminding me to always make dua to You and remember You.

 Assalam & Hi,

I am back! I guess I will be writing this blog whenever I am in the move-on phase.

So a couple of weeks ago I had a short meetup with my potential "friend". He is 8/10 my cup of tea, and I am really looking forward to his next move. But sadly, I haven't heard from him for like 7 freaking days TT.

From that, I believe that he has no interest in me. So here I am, writing this blog so that I can re-read it again when I am old enough to walk and talk and I'll be reading here and there.

It is a sad phase but I have done through this multiple times. People friend-zoned me, people just like me but afraid to take the next action, and bla bla. Sometimes I think that I don't deserve anyone in my life but it will be too pathetic to say it out loud. Huaa. I wish I am an adorable person that people love me from first-time encounter!

What makes me more sad is he fits my criteria but I didn't fit his. So probably that's the reason why he ghosted me. Deep in my heart, I really hope that he at least says that he is sorry that he couldn't proceed with the next step. I might be heart is broken but the least is I got a concrete answer from him. But right now, he ghosted me and I am freaking clueless, is he likes me but he is shy or he doesn't like me at all but has no time to tell me because busy with work or has no time to tell me because I am just nothing-not important girl? OMG. I am now in my detective mode. Thinking and rationalizing. Analyzing what I have wrongly done. Is it because I am too shy to speak to him the other day and make him feels like I am not his type? Ughhh I don't know. Mollayo.

So I will keep make dua for him so that he found the best girl and so am I.

Allah will never sleep. He will grant us what we want one day, at the right time.

Sayonara XX, it was nice to hear your story from your family.

XX, 

Snitch.

BTS Butter !

Yesterday was BTS' new song released - Butter. After 24 hours, the views was 11+ millions and 8 millions like. 

I am wondering how can I attach to this boy band? Usually I just listen to any new pop music, trending songs and any suggestion that suits my taste. 

But apparently my playlist in Spotify, Joox and Youtube is BTS ! Hahahaha.. Aigoo.. I am into K-Pop now.

Btw, just for record, here is my fav & suggestion:

1) Zero o'clock - listen it with lyrics. If you have got problem that day and go home with uneasy feeling, I suggest to listen to this song

2) Whalien 52 - the song is about a special whale with rare frequency - 52 hertz. It describes as loneliest whale in the world. Try to read the lyric, your mind will just blown !

3) Mic Drop & Fake Love - my fav ! 

4) Go Go - the song sound like happy-go-lucky song and enjoyable but it is actually a critic song to young people that loves spending their salary frivolously.

5) The truth untold - a very sad love story - a mask boy lives in a castle lonely. One day a girl come to his castle and steal his flower and sell it to get money. Because that boy like the girl but afraid to show himself, he let the girl steal in exchange he can see the girl everyday. To know the story and why this song is so sad, you need to hear and read the lyric by yourself 

6) Epiphany by Jin BTS - you should love yourself, that is the message of the song

7) Magic shop - the message just as same as Zero o'clock

8) Spring day - evergreen song for BTS, or I can say comfort song for Sewol Ferry Tragedy. The song is about longing someone

9) Butterfly - personally, I think this is the best BTS' song. I know there are a lot of better song than this, but this is what I think.

I started to like BTS when I saw their MTV Unplugged - Life Goes On. I thought that Jin is a very cool person at first. Hahhahahahhahahahha..

Btw, that is my suggestion. What is yours?

have a blast weekend !

and i am having it too.

it is not that we have a lot money and can buy everything that makes us happy. But we can buy things we need, and sometimes we can make it by our own and how we enjoy it and perhaps we bersyukur on it, really the true definition of happiness. Happiness meaning you do you, you do what makes you happy, not the gram follower. not other tweeter handler.

Yes. Again, be happy with what u have. if u think u have not enough, then work harder.

xoxo,

husna