Assalam & Hi,

I am back! I guess I will be writing this blog whenever I am in the move-on phase.

So a couple of weeks ago I had a short meetup with my potential "friend". He is 8/10 my cup of tea, and I am really looking forward to his next move. But sadly, I haven't heard from him for like 7 freaking days TT.

From that, I believe that he has no interest in me. So here I am, writing this blog so that I can re-read it again when I am old enough to walk and talk and I'll be reading here and there.

It is a sad phase but I have done through this multiple times. People friend-zoned me, people just like me but afraid to take the next action, and bla bla. Sometimes I think that I don't deserve anyone in my life but it will be too pathetic to say it out loud. Huaa. I wish I am an adorable person that people love me from first-time encounter!

What makes me more sad is he fits my criteria but I didn't fit his. So probably that's the reason why he ghosted me. Deep in my heart, I really hope that he at least says that he is sorry that he couldn't proceed with the next step. I might be heart is broken but the least is I got a concrete answer from him. But right now, he ghosted me and I am freaking clueless, is he likes me but he is shy or he doesn't like me at all but has no time to tell me because busy with work or has no time to tell me because I am just nothing-not important girl? OMG. I am now in my detective mode. Thinking and rationalizing. Analyzing what I have wrongly done. Is it because I am too shy to speak to him the other day and make him feels like I am not his type? Ughhh I don't know. Mollayo.

So I will keep make dua for him so that he found the best girl and so am I.

Allah will never sleep. He will grant us what we want one day, at the right time.

Sayonara XX, it was nice to hear your story from your family.

XX, 

Snitch.

BTS Butter !

Yesterday was BTS' new song released - Butter. After 24 hours, the views was 11+ millions and 8 millions like. 

I am wondering how can I attach to this boy band? Usually I just listen to any new pop music, trending songs and any suggestion that suits my taste. 

But apparently my playlist in Spotify, Joox and Youtube is BTS ! Hahahaha.. Aigoo.. I am into K-Pop now.

Btw, just for record, here is my fav & suggestion:

1) Zero o'clock - listen it with lyrics. If you have got problem that day and go home with uneasy feeling, I suggest to listen to this song

2) Whalien 52 - the song is about a special whale with rare frequency - 52 hertz. It describes as loneliest whale in the world. Try to read the lyric, your mind will just blown !

3) Mic Drop & Fake Love - my fav ! 

4) Go Go - the song sound like happy-go-lucky song and enjoyable but it is actually a critic song to young people that loves spending their salary frivolously.

5) The truth untold - a very sad love story - a mask boy lives in a castle lonely. One day a girl come to his castle and steal his flower and sell it to get money. Because that boy like the girl but afraid to show himself, he let the girl steal in exchange he can see the girl everyday. To know the story and why this song is so sad, you need to hear and read the lyric by yourself 

6) Epiphany by Jin BTS - you should love yourself, that is the message of the song

7) Magic shop - the message just as same as Zero o'clock

8) Spring day - evergreen song for BTS, or I can say comfort song for Sewol Ferry Tragedy. The song is about longing someone

9) Butterfly - personally, I think this is the best BTS' song. I know there are a lot of better song than this, but this is what I think.

I started to like BTS when I saw their MTV Unplugged - Life Goes On. I thought that Jin is a very cool person at first. Hahhahahahhahahahha..

Btw, that is my suggestion. What is yours?

have a blast weekend !

and i am having it too.

it is not that we have a lot money and can buy everything that makes us happy. But we can buy things we need, and sometimes we can make it by our own and how we enjoy it and perhaps we bersyukur on it, really the true definition of happiness. Happiness meaning you do you, you do what makes you happy, not the gram follower. not other tweeter handler.

Yes. Again, be happy with what u have. if u think u have not enough, then work harder.

xoxo,

husna

 mixed feelings

Nah, lately, I feel something wrong about myself. I keep thinking about my past boyfriend and every time I think about it, my tears burst out. 

But I keep telling myself, it is okay hun, he is leaving for good. It could be more worse if he is still with me.

Then, I feel more calm.

I don't how many years we'd separated. I loss count of it. But believe me, I am getting better but still in move on mood.

The sad episode maybe because of this month is his birthday.

Btw, happy birthday, wishing you all the best in your life. I hope you can make your dream comes true, even with someone else.

Yeah.

 

 

Di persimpangan

 It is actually a rough decision to make when it comes to life-changing decision.

It could be as hard as "what to eat eh for lunch?" "wanna go out or not this morning?" "black sock or white sock?".

But actually it is harder than that. Cause it will change you.

So how to make the righteous decision when it will affect your life afterwards ? :

1) Istikharah, this is the best and should be number one.

2) Know what do you want in your life and is it align with what you want ?

3) Keep rational with a little emotion when you the decision. Think it carefully and are you happy with that the decision ? Cause after all your happiness is what matter the most.

4) Ask others opinion. Try to explain to them your condition and hear their point of view. Everyone could have their own point of view for one same thing.

5) Be honest to yourself

6) Once decided, just do it !

Bismillah...

Husna 

Mental Health Awareness

I am currently watching an ongoing Kdrama - It's okay not to be okay (in hangul - saikojiman gweanchana). It is an interesting drama, plays by good actors, great storyline, ah-may-zing OST and nice cinematography. I wanted to make some review, but no so review since i have no psychology background, but more to share take-away notes and lessons. stay tune!  

Hi ! Back to my gratitude journal update.

I have started my gratitude journal few months ago and to be honest, I am not consistently do the update. Main reasons : I was too lazy and sometimes i just forgot :( wkwwkw.

But to make me excite every time to write an update, I bought myself and Aida stickers to be the props ! We bought it online, Mr Diy, Daiso and kedai 2 ringgit. We ran into vloggers in YouTube just to learn how to decorate journal. From washi tape, to cute animal stickers and also colorful pens.

So, i turned my gratitude journal into multi-tasking journal. Sometimes i wrote down my gratitude, sometimes I just play around with the stickers.

this is the cover of my journal.

i put on my secret in this fancy envelope.

from sampul raya turned into deco.


I wrote my journal in english so that i can improve myself by constantly write in that language.
My honest review after doing this kind of journal, i become aware about self love. and most importantly, i started to syukor my countless blessings. Alhamdulillah.

P/s : I wanted to take pictures of my journal, but biane there is a lot of secrets.


Husna,
I am in love with myself.