have a blast weekend !

and i am having it too.

it is not that we have a lot money and can buy everything that makes us happy. But we can buy things we need, and sometimes we can make it by our own and how we enjoy it and perhaps we bersyukur on it, really the true definition of happiness. Happiness meaning you do you, you do what makes you happy, not the gram follower. not other tweeter handler.

Yes. Again, be happy with what u have. if u think u have not enough, then work harder.

xoxo,

husna

 mixed feelings

Nah, lately, I feel something wrong about myself. I keep thinking about my past boyfriend and every time I think about it, my tears burst out. 

But I keep telling myself, it is okay hun, he is leaving for good. It could be more worse if he is still with me.

Then, I feel more calm.

I don't how many years we'd separated. I loss count of it. But believe me, I am getting better but still in move on mood.

The sad episode maybe because of this month is his birthday.

Btw, happy birthday, wishing you all the best in your life. I hope you can make your dream comes true, even with someone else.

Yeah.

 

 

Di persimpangan

 It is actually a rough decision to make when it comes to life-changing decision.

It could be as hard as "what to eat eh for lunch?" "wanna go out or not this morning?" "black sock or white sock?".

But actually it is harder than that. Cause it will change you.

So how to make the righteous decision when it will affect your life afterwards ? :

1) Istikharah, this is the best and should be number one.

2) Know what do you want in your life and is it align with what you want ?

3) Keep rational with a little emotion when you the decision. Think it carefully and are you happy with that the decision ? Cause after all your happiness is what matter the most.

4) Ask others opinion. Try to explain to them your condition and hear their point of view. Everyone could have their own point of view for one same thing.

5) Be honest to yourself

6) Once decided, just do it !

Bismillah...

Husna 

Mental Health Awareness

I am currently watching an ongoing Kdrama - It's okay not to be okay (in hangul - saikojiman gweanchana). It is an interesting drama, plays by good actors, great storyline, ah-may-zing OST and nice cinematography. I wanted to make some review, but no so review since i have no psychology background, but more to share take-away notes and lessons. stay tune!  

Hi ! Back to my gratitude journal update.

I have started my gratitude journal few months ago and to be honest, I am not consistently do the update. Main reasons : I was too lazy and sometimes i just forgot :( wkwwkw.

But to make me excite every time to write an update, I bought myself and Aida stickers to be the props ! We bought it online, Mr Diy, Daiso and kedai 2 ringgit. We ran into vloggers in YouTube just to learn how to decorate journal. From washi tape, to cute animal stickers and also colorful pens.

So, i turned my gratitude journal into multi-tasking journal. Sometimes i wrote down my gratitude, sometimes I just play around with the stickers.

this is the cover of my journal.

i put on my secret in this fancy envelope.

from sampul raya turned into deco.


I wrote my journal in english so that i can improve myself by constantly write in that language.
My honest review after doing this kind of journal, i become aware about self love. and most importantly, i started to syukor my countless blessings. Alhamdulillah.

P/s : I wanted to take pictures of my journal, but biane there is a lot of secrets.


Husna,
I am in love with myself.

I've started my own gratitude journal !

Since there is a lot of outcome positive by the testimonial, I've decided to start my own last two days.
Here is some tips for the beginner and reason why you should start your own too !

Tips :
- Devote one book, the one you comfortable to jot down your gratitude, not too big and not too small.
 But still, it depends on your preference.
- Some of the people advised to write 3 things a day that you grateful of, and some of them advised to make it five. But I saw one You-tuber suggested to write down 1 thing a day but list out 5 reason why you are grateful with that thing.
- You can make it 3 days a week or everyday, you choose !
- Everytime you write down the things, feel it with your heart so that it will affect you emotionally and mentally.

Why you must start one?
- It makes you more grateful with what you have. Most of us do feel grateful but it might be unconsciously. We need to feel it in real.
- It makes your thought become positive, trust me. Writing it down will make us realize that despite of our struggle that we faced everyday, we still got something to be grateful for.

Honestly, i just started two days ago and it has yet to affect me so far. But i will get back to you 2-3 months and tell the honest review about this habit !

Stay tune & stay at home
#covid19
#rmo

Perjalanan dekat dunia ni tak mudah.

Kita suka maksiat, kita susah nak buat benda baik dan kita susah dan berterusan bila buat sesuatu perkara.

Tapi kita sentiasa berharap perkara yang baik-baik yang akan datang pada kita.

Episod crush aku yang lepas mengajarkan aku bahwa nak dapat yang baik bukan senang. Banyak benda kena berkorban.

Kena sentiasa jadi baik, ada mulut yang baik, intention yang baik, akhlak yang baik, sebab bila kita keluarkan benda yang baik dari kita, ia akan menarik benda baik dari luar untuk dekat dengan kita. 

Dia bukan macam konsep magnet positif menarik negatif - negatif menarik yang positif. Kebaikan akan sentiasa dapat pada hati yang bersih dan orang yang berbudi.

Formula dia mudah, kau buat baik, iAllah yang baik akan datang. Tak perlu tercari-cari, prepare your self and be good to others.

Maafkan semua orang dan berharap agar orang maafkan kita juga.

Yes, finally

I can move on!

I can act calmly when he is around. I am not really nervous and can be myself.

I wish I can throw this feeling far away. I keep saying to myself that I don't deserve him and he is someone else's.

I wish I can end this soonest.

Pray for me!

Motivational

There was one day I walked to station bus to catch the earliest trip to my home.
Along the way, me and my friends chatting and you know what, gossiping about my colleague.
At the junction, we parted since we are going to different way.

I walked with umbrella since that day was raining. 200 meters ahead, i saw a couple sharing an umbrella, walked closely-and sweetly towards a traffic light.
It was green light for pedestrians then, so I paced up to cross the street.
When I was closer to the couple, I overheard the wife scolding the husband to cross the road quickly.

Turned out that the husband is with disability! He couldn't walk straight, seems like his leg twisted and he barely could walk by his own. He needed his wife to walk and that's why they walk together closely.

It was mind-blowing and I was like... wow.
They seemed happy from the back but when you come closer them, only then you can hear the shouting and the angry expression from both.
The expression showed up since both frustrate at each other.
The wife frustrates to her husband as he couldn't walk straight and at the same time they have to cross the road before red light.
And the husband frustrate because the wife keep scolding him.

As we can see this, it could happen with bigger picture. A marriage could seen as a happy one in an instagram, or in an event, but at the back, when we see it clearly and observe, the marriage is full of hatred and selfishness. No tolerance, no teamwork and no love. Everything changes as time goes by.

We, the outsider tend to judge them. Hey, you look happy but you aren't. You fake it.
But at the same time we aren't in their shoes, feel their pains and hardship to maintain the relationship so that people don't talk shit on them. We just criticize them, simply because they put their happy face in front and actually otherwise at back.

So, we shouldn't judge anyone's life just based on what they tried to show is not the same with what happened actually. There is always a reason why people behave like that.
We should mind our own business and pray the best for them. And hoping the hell that they're living now will be their Jannah soon.


Always make du'a for others :)

I really hate to say this..

It is really hard to move on and it seems like impossible.

I challenge myself to confess my feeling towards him, until one day

I saw him wandering with blurry face.

Makes me wonder, is he alright?

Why he looked so blur and at the same time his face is so lonely..

I wonder why

Is he okay?

Something just happened to him?